Being Fat Sucks, Don't try this at home!

Once upon a time there was this maiden who loved to head out into the concrete jungle around her and experience life in many different ways.  She would go to the mall and go shopping for hours and come home with bags full of clothes that she looked fabulous in.  Everything she tried on in the store fit like a glove and she was so excited to shop.  She adored going to the beaches and wearing bathing suits and shorts.  Being outside in the sun being one with nature was exhilarating and love the feeling of the sand in her toes.  She loved food as well.  She would taste and sample everything around her and admired how everything she ate tasted so heavenly.  She would eat whenever she wanted and could eat whatever she wanted and was still as beautiful.  Her clothes always fit the same no matter what.  It did not matter what she did as she felt like a mortal goddess everyday of her life.

If only life was like the dreams and fantasies we grow up with thinking will happen in our future.  I do not know about you, but I can not remember the last time I truly enjoyed going to the shopping mall and buying things for myself OR heading to the beach and freely walking around confident in myself in a bathing suit.  Reality is I am not looking at all for a pity party, if anything this year I would prefer to give myself a reality check.  By reality check I mean I lying to myself and sugar coating the truth.  I know not everyone will agree with my title of the post, but for myself that is as true as it can be.  Being Fat Sucks.


No it is not that I have been deluded like many of those singers and dancers on the reality shows.  I knew I was not my ideal weight and that I needed to loose some.  Gosh,  if you have been following my blog for a while you will probably remember that this time last year I was in a challenge to loose weight.  I did loose a ton and then I fell back into the same ruts and before you know it your back to the beginning.  Sure I would tell people I want/need to loose some weight,  I want/need to become more fit.  Though once I was making progress and feeling so confident in myself, my guard would drop down and viola all that progress, challenges and sacrifices I made were worth nothing.  Which in the end means that I truly was saying that I am worth nothing.  Though I know I am so what gives?

Reality is that I am living my life in a great big circle and if I do not learn and change it then I will continue to follow in the circle that I am in right now.  No one can change me from the path I am on.  I have to have the courage to admit it to myself and fight through the barriers I have put up it make it to my goal.  The strange thing is I was just reading a book where the character was doing running into the same issues over and over again over hundreds of years.  She was immortal and she kept making mistakes and to the point her fortune telling her that she never learns and she keeps making the same mistake.  In the end she does learn, but it was hard for her to break out of the cycle.  It came to she would loose so much more if she did not stop making the same mistakes. 

Breaking out of our comfort zones is a hard thing for any of us to do.  Though this is one that I am needing to do for myself.  I can not bank on another chance as we are never guaranteed tomorrow.  We have to live life fully with every breath we take as you never know when it will be the last.

The Biggest Loser Ups and Downs still!

Well if your a new follower you may not know that I have been trying to loose weight this year.  Back in January I joined a Biggest Loser Challenge with some other moms in my city.  The challenge ends at the end of this month!  I can not believe where the time has gone! I had been doing really well and then I do not know what happened, but I lost my dedication into it.  I ended  up one day cheating, eating foods that I should not have, then one day went to another and then another.

I honestly was not surprised though in the past I would just give up and say "forget about this weight loss".  Then I would get sick of my weight and start all over again.  This time I find I haven't waited and given up fully which is what I am happy about.  Maybe this is steps in the right direction?

Reality is I am not doing as much exercise as I should be or lack of any on many days.  Though I have been getting better at my eating habits and bringing new foods into my kitchen.  One big thing is that I have been eating more fruits and vegetables.  Yay!!  However, I still find I cheat sometimes when I shouldn't be eating at all.  Like after work when everyone is sleeping and I should not be eating.

Recently I got a book called the 17 day diet and it is a way to get rid of the extra sugars and white carbohydrates from your body and cravings.  I have been doing it a couple weeks now and my meat intake is chicken, turkey and fish and I can pretty much eat as much vegetables and some other good things.  Sure I find some days I have super huge cravings.  I also have to say YES I have cheated, but overall I am liking the change and finding I am not as tired and have more energy.    Though is it because of my food or because the weather is getting nicer??  I'll say it is because of the food as I need to believe that, but Mother Nature keep bringing the sun please :-)

Well I do have to say though, I think my husband is getting sick of fish..lol  I am going to search around for a few new recipes so hopefully this will as some excitement with the menu and I'll be sure to share if and what I found.

If you have any suggestions feel free to share :-)

Portobella Mushroom Pizza!

So the past couple of days I have been making some new and fresh meals in our household.  Tonight I made a Portobello Mushroom Pizza.  I was a little worried how it would taste, but was willing to give it a try and was so glad that I did!  Its quick to make and only 97 CALORIES PER PIZZA and they were very filling so I definitely recommend checking out this one!

I'll be adding pictures once my camera batteries recharge, it died as I took my last picture! :-(


4 whole portobello mushroom caps without stems
1/2 cup low-fat marinara sauce
1/2 cup lean turkey Italian sausage-cooked, drained and crumbled
4 tablespoons shredded fat-free mozzarella cheese
2 tablespoons freshly grated Parmesan cheese
1 tablespoon chopped basil

Clean the mushrooms and place them on a baking sheet. Then place spoonfuls of the sauce over the tops, sprinkle the sausage and the cheeses. Then bake at 350 degrees for 6 to 8 minutes or until the cheese is melted. Garnish with fresh basil.

Enjoy!